Mission imossible= understanding the ticket that exploded

So on a day like any other I opened up a book that was a new assignment for our English class. Sounds pretty normal right? Well unlike any other book before this book made absolutely no sense to me. At first i though that maybe i was just not reading it right or that i need to read into it more to understand it better...but NO!!! The farther you move on the more you understand that there is no way to really understand this book. For the most part the confusion is caused by the fact that the book is written in slashed up parts which when read don't seem to connect much with each other so you are constantly thinking of "What just happened?" or "How does that even relate?" but the most frustrating part i think is that after a while the author goes back to having normal paragraphs and you think yay i understand this part i must be improving and then BAM, and again you have no clue. Like someone is class put it really well the book basically gives you the middle finger.

Another aspect of the book that makes it a bit different from what I'm used to is all the graphic imagery used in the book, for one thing i definitely didn't expect a school book to have sexual context, but this goes beyond plane sex, but more into constant sexual details that make you feel disturbed at first. Yet as you keep going further into the book you just accept all those graphic details and stop feeling strong emotions like disgust towards it. So that makes me think that we can teach ourselves to accept even the most disturbing things if we just get in the habit of constantly seeing them.

A good question that was asked in class is why do we find the book disturbing. I honestly can't think of just one answer to simply explain it so I'm just going to show you my chain of reasoning on this question. First on i think that the book draws disgust because of all the sexual details in it. Yet as a civilized person we are constantly taught to think of sex as something privet that we don't talk about and here it is just flat out slammed into your face. Then when we look at sex we like to think that sex is something beautiful if it is associated with an emotion like love for another, and in this book sex had no emotions attached to it so that seems frightening and amoral. Also all the sex in this book has some alien feeling to it whether it is sex between non human object or whether it is sex that involves using some kind of weird thing shoved up someones ass. Furthermore the whole book has no sex between a man or a women which i think most people think of as normal. Another disturbing aspect is the loss of the control of the body associated with sex that just seems scary like the melting of the skin from a good orgasm. So like i said i can't pinpoint the reason the book brings the reader to disgust but i think it has a lot to do with the preexisting rules about sex that people have.

I actually started to find the book pretty funny and interesting after a while. I mean maybe i don't really understand it but from the way its written i figure its not meant to be understood in the usual way. Its meant to stretch our views on the relationship between the reader and the book. I admit that i would feel uncomfortable if someone saw what exactly i was reading about, because I'm sure i would be seen as a person with a sick fantasy, but i think that life is all about trying new things even if you don't always understand them.